I almost feel like crying just about every night, I'm desperate to just let this go and get it out there, I don''t feel like telling my friends because trust issues and stuff.. I'm hurting, horribly, and I can't vent on tumblr because of people at school, so I cam here. Hoping in any way possible I would feel better. I can't even be myself with my friends any longer, I feel so forced to laugh and I feel left out more then ever. It's my last year and it was something I wanted to remember but lately It hasn't been that way at all. I feel like I lost my self and nobody would ever understand, I feel used lost and everything in between.. My feelings are hurt, my head aches, and I just want to run away from it all. is that so much to ask..